I am SOMEONE

I walked past a dead face

even though the person was alive

I saw my eyes in the mirror

and cried at the sight

I looked at a person I didn't know

and I met a friend

I got heads to turn

when I walked past

I learned a lot about myself

when I lost a new friend

I cried every tear in my body

when I thought about love

I got hit bad

then got back in the ring

I climbed a mountain of rocks

and saw an eagle fly over- head

I heard terrible things about myself

when no one thought I was listening

I realized I was strong

when I didn't cry when it hurt

I found out who I was

when I was with someone else

I thought I was lost forever

when a friend found me

I held a life in my handand

it was my own

I was a pawn in someone else's game

so I surrendered to a brook

I walked the fine line between surviving

and not wanting to surviveI still am

I am someone ...

(by Annastasia Aressia )

PoWeR oF PaiN..

I sat alone another day.
The world was moving all around me,
but it seemed as if my life was in a standstill.
The doctors say its anxiety.
Everyone thinks anxiety means nervousness or fear,
but it is deeper than that.
Anxiety holds you prisoner.
You can't leave your house.

Ding
Dong
Ding
Dong

The doorbell rings but I can't answer.
There is too much fear inside.
You can't answer the phone.

Ring
Ring
Ring

"Telephone for you!" my family yells. I
tell them to say that I will call back, but I won't.
You can't eat.

Chomp
Bite
Chew

No, not me. The anxiety
even controls that. All the pain rushes back up with
every little thing I eat.
You can't go out.

Step
Step
Step

Everyone walking around me, but I can't move, the
apprehension paralyzes me.
Everyone says, "Be brave. You can do it. You'll make it out of this."
But sometimes I wonder if I will.
I try to combat it all, but if I attempt to do anything,
it all starts over again.

Thump
Thump
Thump

My heart beats faster and faster.
I can feel it in my chest.

Beads of sweat
Racing
Falling
Running down my forehead.
All the thoughts swarm in my brain.
The fear picks up.
It is unbearable.
I'm so frightened, but I don't know what of.
The paranoia sweeps over my body like a giant wave.
Every day I have to fight what seems to be a losing battle.
But then . . . I look outside.
I see the colors.
I see the life.
I see spirit.
I know I can do this.

Hope
Pray
Win (by Star711 )

My Love

Every single morning,

I thank the Lord above,

For helping me find you,

And showing me how to love.

I don't understand your reasons,

I don't know why you care,

I know I don't deserve you,

or the affection that we share.
Whenever I feel lost,or wonder why I'm here,

I think of how you love me,and I smile from ear to ear.
I knew you were the one for me,since the day we first met,

My love has grown a lot since then,

And hasnt stopped just yet.
I'll always be here for you,

Even if you want to part,

No matter what we go through,

You'll always hold my heart.
Not only do I love you,for your soul, your heart, your mind,

I love how you have changed me,into this person I couldn't find.
Is it really possible,

To have a love so true?

I thought it wasn't practical,

Until the light led me to you.
If I ever had to leave you,my heart would not survive,

Without you in my life,

I wouldn't be alive.
I need you here to love me,and help me conquer fears,

I need you here to hold me,and dry up all my tears.
So as we grow together,on life's unknowing journey,

I hope our love gets stronger,

as the flame continues burning.

To reaLize...

To realize the value of ONE YEAR, ask a student who failed a grade.
To realize the value of ONE MONTH, ask a mother who gave birth to a premature baby.
To realize the value of ONE WEEK, ask the editor of a weekly newspaper.
To realize the value of ONE HOUR, ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.
To realize the value of ONE MINUTE, ask a person who missed the train.
To realize the value of ONE SECOND, ask a person who just avoided an accident.
Treasure every moment ! Yesterday is history.
Tomorrow is mystery.
Today is a gift. That's why it's called the present!

"1 litre of tears" pasti mengundang air mata..

ini adalah cerita jepun,based on true story tau...dia cerita pasal sorang budak pompuan yang masi dalam sekolah menengah yang mengidap penyakit(saya lupa nama penyakit dia...)yang berkaitan dengan saraf...yang mengakibatkan dia gagal mengawal pergerakkan badan dia...simtom dia adalah terjatuh tanpa dia sendiri sedar,malah tiada tanda dia cuba mengelak dari terjatuh,langsung ja tersungkur......penyakit ni membunuh dia perlahan,dari jalan hingga percakapan....

ini adalah pelakon yang memegang watak perempuan sakit tuuu....dia belakon macam real siuttt....cantik lagi kan...namun di setiap credit pada penghabisan setiap episode sebenarnya disiarkan gambar2 perempuan yang sebenar(yang betul2 sakit tau...kan cerita yang dipetik dari kisah hidup sebenar)...sebenarnya,jalan cerita drama ini adalah hasil temuramah ibu perempuan tersebut dan juga diary sepanjang hayat dia(doktor perempuan tu suruh dia menulis diary supaya doktor tu dapat lihat perubahan perempuan tersebut....)

ini barisan pelakon dia....best...walaupun sedih,tapi saya jamin drama ni banyak nilai2 yang patut dicontohi...kamu pasti puas hati....selamat menonton...

my pets....meooowww...

ini yala kucings yang yang saya sangat sayang....yang hitam+putih tuu namanya Emut,suka tido,kejar cicak and play with my dog (c oloson)...c emut ni,berkawan dgn oloson sejak jecuk,c olosom pun kecil lagi time tuu...jadi kwn baik sampai ke besar lah....dia suka nek kreta,sebab my mom dari kecik2 lagi da bawa nek kreta pegi ambik adik saya balik dr school...

hah...yang puih melepak tuu purak namanya (bermaksud putik dalam b.Dusun)...c purak ni saya bawa dari kg.Tenghilan..jauh tuu ..tenom-Tenghilan..hahaha...dia suka tido dgn saya,pastu sorong2 kepala dia kat tgn saya minta sayang2...pastu,suka nek moto..hahaha...tak suka main dgn c oloson tapi suka main dgn ekor c oloson (yela,ekor anjing kan bergerak ja sepanjang masa...)mata dia kaler biru,tu yang buat saya terpikat nak ambik dia jad 'kucing angkat'....hahaha....

cHristmas lalu...caroller unggul 2007

kami adalah hamba Tuhan yang suka bernyanyi...tapi taktau la sedap ke tak suara kami tuu...tapi kami 'yakin jak' merdu amat suara kami...Caroller KKD Immaculate Conception ARS Lagud Sebrang..yaa...goo....

gudbye 2007...

inilah sepupu saya...so naugty but cool....yang di tanam hidup2 tuu...namanya brian...bole2 dia minta my mom tanom dai.."ma,kubur saya heh!"...my mom pun orait ja..kikiki...yang len tu bukan menolong,tapi bila nak gambar,cepat2 kuar dari air nak berpossing...hahaha...utk pgetahuan korg,kami sekeluarga sebelah my mom (tenghilan)buat picnic sempena tukar tahun(31st Dec 2007)di pantai diGod yang terletak di Kota Belud...tak jauh,tapi nak sampai pantai tuu punya la jauh...masuk kampung geng...hepi la time tuu,beliau2 pun kalah penat malam tu time tunggu pkl12...hahaha...tapi sedih jugalah...tak semua cousin ada time tuu...keja di west kan..i mean west malaysia...

ini lah antara jamuan kami masa tuu...yang berpossing tuu my mom..kikiki...tapi sayang saya tak dpt merasa...(tapun...)saya p gansau a.k.a jalan2 di tanjung tu pantai...best...jauh la tapi best...sanggup owh..nak tgk apa ada di sebelah bukit tuu...rupanya ada kampung air di hujunggggggg dia,sapi ja yang kami jumpa dekat2...klu bdk UiTM Sabah,macam kg yang beole di tengok dari cluster tuuu....best...gelap trus saya...hahaha

sebelah kanan ni my cousin juga,anak untie Martha,namanya Alvin so sweet and cute...i miss him..